"Big bears have big balls and little bears have little balls!"

House cleaning today! Trying to keep up and catch up! I feel like every time I start the kids start messing it up! my SIL (sister-in-law) is coming today for the weekend. Even though it is mothers day on Sunday it is also mmlh's birthday and she is very close to him. They have a special bond that I can not describe, but I love it. So after cleaning for what felt like 5 days she arrived and we sorted clothes to pass along. Its hand me down time! I love the weekends when we have stuff to do. I makes it feel like it goes quick. I know that most people like to relax but I like to do and get stuff done!

I made a wonderful dish tonight thank you Jamie Oliver! I love his cook books the are wonderful. So as we set down to dinner the man said something to me that made me happy. Since we moved in to our own home we have had something different for dinner. Except for leftovers I have made something new or different and I have only made the same thing twice. Pretty impressive don't you think! We moved in Nov. So tonight I made pasta with Camembert cheese. It was so wonderful! If you do not have his cook book you must try this recipe it is wonderful and I loved it!

So mlh said something to my oldest daughter that still has the man and I laughing. He said "Big bears have big balls and little bears have little balls!" Mod (my oldest daughter) asked the man if that was true he said yes then said " mlh we do not talk about balls!" I think that this is how my day has been. I mean think about how honest that sentence is. I love how kids put things into perspective. I wish adults still had that ability. The no sugar needed, the I going to tell you how it is no matter how it may hurt your feelings. I love it and it makes me look inwards to see just how much I am sugar coating my life. So I am going try to take some sugar out of my life and just look at the black and white. It is going to be a blunt and hurtful look I think but I must think of one thing... This will help me grow and until I do I guess It is going to be big and little bears around here.

I have a new definition for the phrase "Drag Queen"

I have a new definition for the phrase "Drag Queen"! My oldest daughter came in this morning and said "mlmm is being a Drag Queen!" "What?" I said. "You know a D R A G QUEEN!" she said to me with attitude. It was almost like she was saying DUH MOM. You know that look kids give you. So I asked her "What do you think Drag queen means." (When you ask kids this question it is almost scary... you might get the right answer.) She said " you know when you go to the bathroom and do not wipe well and you drag!" (all I could think of was those dogs that drag there buts on the floor. She was so serious when she told me this answer I looked at her and said " no I don't think that is what a drag queen is". It wasn't until I told this story to the man that he laughed to her face and told her what a Drag Queen really was. I think it is funny how kids hear words and they make up their own definitions for them. I think that we should all make up our own words and definitions. It would be like having your own family language. Like texting. YKWIM...(YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN) If you don't text then when you get one its like What?

I had a conversation with my cousin today and I got me thinking of one of my favorite worship songs... Why is it that so many of us see God and hear God but we turn and thank other things? In the song it says... Many men will drink the rain and turn to thank the clouds... many men will hear you speak but they will never turn around. I wounder how many times I thanked the clouds and didn't turn around. Maybe that is why I am where I am.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TbUpmKIGmU0
I will not forget You

(vs1) Many men will drink the rain
And turn to thank the clouds
Many men will hear You speak
But they will never turn around

I will not forget You are my God, my King
And with a thankful heart I bring my offering
And my sacrifice is not what You can give
But what I alone can give to you

A grateful heart I give, A thankful prayer I pray,
A wild dance I dance before you
A loud song I sing, A huge bell I ring,
A life of praise I live before You

(vs2) Many men will pour their gold
And serve a thing that shines
Many men will read your words
But they will never change their minds

My mom is coming home tonight! Thank you GOD!

"I have meatballs and peanuts!"

Mom is still in the hospital and I have had a busy busy day! I woke up and drove the oldest to meet his g-pa in Mojave he will he at a bluegrass festival enjoying being in Kids in Bluegrass which he loves. I will no longer be home on any mothers days or fathers day or any other days that Bluegrass festivals fall on. Also he will not be here for what mlh calls M-day! This year his birthday falls on mothers day and we were going to wait to celebrate his b-day like we always do with his older brother at the end of the month but someone informed him that his b-day was this Sunday, on M-day which stands for his birthday! So, he wants a Nintendo DSI and a cake a a bounce house and a pool party all in one! Yeah! Now I have mlmm saying M-day is coming up and happy M-day! so Mothers day will not exists this year! Shopping for mothersday cards we had to get cards for M-day also because his birthday is coming up! We also had to discuss what he wanted again because I guess he thinks I didn't hear him the first 30 times he told me. So he wants DS games and no stupid clothes. He wants Wii games and his own Wii controller with a numchuck that matches in Blue!!! Not black or red but Blue! What happened to my little helper that didn't have any idea and just liked getting gifts? Thank you Disney Channel for all the wonderful commercials you changed my almost four year old into a 15 year old with all of his wishes!

This evening while bathing the little monkeys mlmm said " Mom I have meatballs?" Here I am thinking what in the heck are meatballs then mlh said "No! I have meatballs and peanuts you have Mom what does she have?" After making him repeat himself because I wanted to make sure I had this right I said "girls have a vajaja" (not sure how to spell that one) and then she said "I have a pee pee." I wasn't going to fight it I just wanted everyone know that peanuts and meatballs now mean something different at this house.

While we were eating tonight mlh decided to pray for our food his prayer went something like this " Close your eyes and bow your head like this see...thank you for dinner and the lettuce and the food amen" So mlh prayed!!!

Ants in my pants!

Something happened today that got me laughing so hard that it made me remember times when I was younger. The little mess maker and helper were outside playing with red ants. I am not sure what kind of ants these are but they are not the little red ants but the ones that look like they are on steroids. Anyway, I say"dont play with those ants! They bite!" " No! they don't bite!" said mlmm (my little mess maker). So, monkey see, monkey do and both monkeys were playing with the ants. Mlh (my little helper) runs to me saying see they don't bite allowing one to crawl on the arm of his long sleeved shirt. "They bite" I said and continued to sit back and watch. All of a sudden It was like looking at my self mlmm sat down right next to the ant hill and I yelled "don't sit on that hill you are going to get stung". It was only a second before I witnessed the funniest part my little one striping down naked in our yard yelling "get off! get off!! Yuck! Don't bite me!" So the hose went on and I sprayed down all the ants and mlh was taking his shoe and killing all the ants that were still alive and saying "I'm sorry you bite". Then he says "kill them all mom!" Stomping and swatting ants all while trying not to laugh just made me think... I am going to be in trouble I have a kid that refuses to take your word for it. She will have to see for herself. I guess being a person just like that makes me understand her a little better. I know that the road that I choose sometimes looks so strange to some but I have to see it for myself. Just like I have to taste everything twice to make sure that the first bite was really bad. I have to try things sometimes twice to make sure that it really isn't for me. So I am sure that this ant experience will happen again seeing how I sat in an ant hill and then fell onto and ant hill before I realized that ants bite. Showers and hot tubs remove ants very quick. That is probably why I grabbed the hose. Good news only one or two bites probably because of my quick response.

I went to the hospital to see my mom... Still don't know and neither do the doctors. I guess only time will tell what is wrong with my mom. I will keep you informed.

I do have some info for all you people who like to start crap by gossiping... the proceedure I had done was to help me so I didn't have to have a bigger surgery so young in life. It was not because of anything else. I wish I had the money to have some of the things people are saying done!!! Can you imagine I'd love to look like I did before 4. It also had Nothing to do with me having another baby!!! Somethings need not to be shared for God to still answer prayers!!

Guess what I'm unusual!

Today was long...I had to get up and go! My uncle came and drove me and the kids with the trailer to Bakersfield so we could drop off and pick up the remainder of our stuff. Not really feeling good I am not sure if a long trip like that was the way to go I am very tired and blogging right now seems like a waste of time. But here I am up late.
My favorite Dr. C called today and wanted me to know that I am unusual and what happened to me was abnormal. So, I guess that having what happened to me is a good thing, because it got me thinking... I am supposed to be unusual!!! It's a good thing and so is my thinking. Maybe that is why I have such a hard time finding a church and fitting in. Maybe I am here to help people see out of the box. I believe that being stuck in a box can hurt you more than you realize. It make you out of touch. Out of touch with people, people like me. That's all I have for today maybe I wont do so much and feel great tomorrow.

No matter what you always find a reason to need a mom.

On Friday I woke up and drove to Ventura with all four kids. Having my mom in the hospital and the man working at the coast I had to make other arrangements for the day. Thankfully the new Mrs. B came to the rescue. So off to Ventura we went dropped the kids off with my cousin the new Mrs. B and went to see my endocrinologist for an ultra sound of my thyroid. Looks the same and that is great news for me! So it's off to my favorite Dr. C's office for a in office procedure that should be easy! So I thought. It went very well better than I thought. I left feeling great I went and picked up my prescription and ate which was a big mistake! We drove to my cousins house and that is all I remember the pain set in and the puking started. After a little while in pain my cousin called the doctors office and then we were back in the car driving to the doctors office. Two shots later and I was now going to the ER. After a while in the ER puking and in pain. The man called my parents and my uncle and dad came to help with the car situation. So after driving home and spending all weekend in pain I realized something...No matter what you always find a reason to need a mom. If my mom was there I would have not got the shot that I am allergic to which made me go to the ER. Knowing that mothers day is coming up don't forget that no matter where you are with your relationship with your mom you only get one and someday you might need her.

May Day!

I'm sending an S.O.S. I am in bed! Slept all day!