"They are wrong to doubt you, it doesn't mean they wont... "

Today was peaceful during the morning. Stayed inside due to my sun poisoning on my arms. See this white girl and the sun do not get alowng. I do love the California weather but only spring,fall and winter.

When he older kids got home the so did he fighting, yelling, and lack of self control from the oldest. So both kids have reports due and they both waited until today to let me know oh did I mention mod is due tomorrow and she forgot her book and mo is due on Wednesday. I loved school so much when I was younger I thought yes this is what I want to do in my thirties go back to school. Is this some kind of cosmic joke? I just want to know why?...when there is only 2 weeks left makes teachers think hey lets make reports due. Like my kids want to do school work when it is hot outside. Not! they want to go out and play. Come on teachers did you see the weather. I couldn't get the kids to go outside a couple of months ago, no reports due then!

Made dinner with mod and it was so wonderful! We made lazy lasagna, with cheesy crescent rolls and salad. Im thankful my kids like salads. Even though we haven't had the same thing this was a keeper! So left overs for tomorrow yeah no cooking.

"They are wrong to doubt you, it doesn't mean they wont. The same people who misunderstand you, will walk through fire for you tomorrow...you can handle this." This was on my TV show last night and I felt like it was a message just for me. I wish I had heard this a couple of years ago. This is how I have felt my entire life. I wish I was strong enough to take the criticism from my family and friends. Now that all the people I prayed for years ago to find peace with God are serving I feel like I am an outsider again. How is this possible. While watching my show there was a part where she was in her closet yelling at God and I realized that I am not the only one who has more questions than answers. I also have decided that I want it now and I want results now. It did not happen that way. I was misunderstood in high school for looking for God instead of partying or continuing on a path of sure destruction. I was misunderstood in college and was not strong enough to just hang on. Now in my thirties I know my calling in life is the same as it has always been and I am trying to hang on. Hopefully pushing boundaries along the way, since I do not live in a box. Its more like a rectangle with a box on the side.

sun bumps no nap and the man singing OMG!

Today has been good we planted a tree fixed our drip system and did all this in the morning. Watched some TV and attempted to take a nap with 7 kids running in the house. But no nap aside pretty lazy day. While h was taking a nap I caught the man making fun of the usher song OMG which is so catchy. He even sang part of the song. This is so funny to me because the man hates rap, r&b, dance, Techno, if it isn't classic rock or eighties music he isn't having it. So while h slept we move the cooler to he porch side and it works much better. Kept the kids pretty quiet for h to take a nap. W I also think I have sun bumps from all the working out side. I feel like the dad in fouls rush in. I feel like yelling. "In case you haven't noticed the white people are melting out here". We are a family of 6 and I am the only white one. I hate being white and tanless. Its not working out for me.

Super chef isn't coming down so h went home I hate good byes. Praying for a job to open up here so they can be closer. I know that the man would like that. So made the other tritip corn on the cob and rice tonight. All the kids ate so much no left overs. I can't believe it even the picky ones ate. They loved the corn and rice. Finished he laundry and loaded up mos bike and bag into h s car. She is saving me a car ride to bako. Mo is leaving next week on a plane to a blue grass festival. So even though I love bako I'm glad to be missing the heat and drive.

Watched more videos and mlmm love the song bulletproof. She also says it like she does. The man can not complain about this Retro sounding song. Got the kids bathed and ready for bed and for the neice and nephew to drive home. While getting everything ready mlh asked if he could go with h forever. I'm glad that my relationship with them is so good that they want to ditch me the kids need family. When my Nana died so did our family so I am making sure that my kids understand the importance of family. Its important to have cousins. Because of unfortunate wrongs I missed out. I am not close to anyone in my family except h. I think that is why it hurts so bad when we disagree and then don't talk. I hate it when people mess with our relationship. I'm so glad we are on the same page and agree with this chapter in our lives. We are right... they are wrong!

So h left and the man said "I guess your gonna be unhappy now that she is gone" and went to bed. I laughed and said "yep" I need to keep him guessing. I am up late with mlmm and her coughing.
Maybe I'll get sleep when I'm older or dead.

I think I had a awe ha moment today...just wondering did you choose to leave to become someone better, to get better, because you couldn't deal with the others or because you could no longer be there for me. Just wondering!

I believe it was the others. At least that is what I am hoping the answer is. I miss you.

I'm sorry... I Hate the heat! Get here already!

So woke up this morning so we could finish the rock garden before -H gets here and before I had to go and get our veggies. So here we are searching for more rocks around the property and its getting hot and I have 30 minutes to finish this up. So the man and I for it done!!! The rock garden is finished finally...it looks beautiful and I can't wait to plant he grass so its really done. So into the shower, throw on clothes and out the door the four of us went. Mod stayed with her daddy to help with yard work. We got our veggies just in time. Then off to return items at the Walmart and off to the Sam's club. I got what we needed for this weekend and $140.00 later and now the total is $640.00. I hoe it lasts two weeks. Went to sonic for some drinks and got home a little after 10am. Mornings like this make me tired.

Got home and the man and mod did such a great job clearing all the ugly bushes in front of the house. He also weeded all the weeds by my parking space. So finished putting up the misters and cleaned the sidewalk and after getting grouchy I decided to blame my attitude was because of the heat. So the man asked for an apology and I thought I would apologize like he does so here is mu apology. .. I'm sorry.......(need to pause according to the man for at least 5 seconds ) I hate the heat! The man liked this because he got his apology and I got to blame it on the heat! Ha. I really do hate the heat. After my apology and his laughter he said get here already -h. She does hold the key to your happiness.

So they got here we ate dinner...tritip, potatoes, squash and salad. All I was required to make was the salad. Yeah! Love not cooking! When its The mans grillin.

Dancing wih videos and mlh is so funny I am gonna have to record it. His favorite song is rock your body. The oh oh part is my favorite to listen to him sing. He also tries to break dance. Love it. We also listen to OMG and I think my rocker hubby is dying.

Stayed up late because of the mlmm and her allergies. She is a kid that coughs and then pukes. So h and I stayed up waiting for the kids to go to sleep. Did he dishes and then went to bed. Can not wait one whole day with h and the kids.

Prayed at two red lights and in the shower to night. Thank God for the swamp cooler and air conditioner in my car! I hate the heat!

"I'll kiss your butt..."

I think that every light this morning was green and instead of wounding why I thought okay thank you God! So the little ones and I went to the store and got there before 7:30. I feel like all the old people who go shopping in the morning get totally pissed off when the see my kids and I tear up Walmart. I like going early because there are no lines and I can get in and out. So I spent 500 dollars and about had a heart attack. I can not believe how much little things cost and I did not by any ice cream or junk. If poeple aren't making as much as before why is food still so much?

So on my way back I did get one red light and it was so long that I started praying for weird things l guess it didn't matter what I was praying for I was praying. So after praying for weird stuff I started again on my way home. The kids fell asleep in the car and I unloaded the car and mlh asked me to do some donuts on the property before taking him out of the car so here we are in the car making dust on the property... I bet he neighbors were happy about that. So come in the house put he groceries away and played with the kids before the older ones came home. While were playing mlh ran and fell onto our TV stand. Tears and yelling later mlmm came over so very sweet and said" I'll kiss you butt...let me kiss your butt..." I was confused and said "what?" Than she said "I want to kiss mlh owey he's hurt I'll kiss it and make it better." I think this is great! Oh so funny!

Can't wait until tomorrow according to the man H is the key to my happiness and she is coming to visit tomorrow. I guess tomorrow will be a great day.

stop light challenge!

This morning my daughter's dog Maya got bit on her lip by something and her whole face swelled up. It was he weirdest thing I have ever scene. I think I should learn how to add pictures to his blog thing. I think seeing the things I see everyday might bring more laughter in your lives. So mod stayed home today because of her awful allergies. Her little eyes were as red as a sunburn. So although I was trying to be the bad mean mom and keep her in her room all day caved in so we could watch new moon. Which was awesome! Mlmm stayed away from making big messes today. She fell and cut her leg and cryed herself to sleep which allowed us to watch TV. So although the man hates naps it worked for me. All in all a pretty lazy day. Made cottage pie (similar to Sheppard's pie but made with hamburger) I will no longer call it the s word sorry Gordon. I also made Black Angus bread (made me miss the girl lunches with AT,WC,JM,MD man I miss you guys).

So dinner was good. The man helped me to finish the misters getting ready for the family this weekend and for the hot hot hot! Now if we can finish that stupid rock garden and weed wack all the weeds. Wish I had a bulldozer and a truck that ran so I could get sand so we can put up that pool. I should love the heat but I hate the high Edison bills (PG&E for all you bako people). I also miss my old pool and grass. I guess I am missing a lot today and I didn't realize it until I started writing this blog.

Its Thursday and although I used to love Thursday night TV I am sad tonight. So I sat outside a made a wish list of things I wish I could get done. Maybe I shouldn't hang outside because the list is so long. Or maybe I need a new TV show. Ha

So last night I started thinking of ways I could pray for my day so I could get back into the swing of things. So I thought of all the red lights I sit in and thought why not turn down the music and say a prayer. So here is the challenge tomorrow every time you are at a red light pray. It doesn't matter what you pray or even I you believe lets try it together. Let me know if it changes you or your day. The good they bad and the ugly. Let me know and I will let you know if I worked for me.

i want to know if dropping off my eight and ten year old off at the fire department is illegal or just frowned upon.

Have you ever had one of those days where everything is going pretty smoothly. You get up early and make homemade cinnamon rolls. Keep the kids quite while the man is on a conference call. Send he older kids off to school with little fighting. Do some yard work. Still working on that stupid rock garden. I also put in patio drippers. Then the man came home and packed a bag off to he coast again. Everything seems so good then the kids return home from school and the war is on. Well that's how my day has been.

So I ask you can I drop them off or not. After yelling a couple of kicks some hits and me now involved in this stupid fight over a sharp pencil. Took the camera and iPod away. No TV and sent them to there rooms for the night. Made dinner and washed kids and had all the kids asleep by 7:30. Only to have our neighbor knock on he door and wake up he little ones. If the lights are out we are probably asleep. Yes everyone here goes to bed early. Its county life. So to sum it up I have an eight year old emotional basket case and a ten year old instigator and know it all. I am not looking towards summer thankfully they still have school for three more weeks. Did I mentioned mo want to be homeschooled. God Please help me now!!!

Dear mod, please do not fire me...

The tooth fairly left money and a note... it read dear mod, please do not fire me. It was hard to get here. There are a lot of animals out there. I will try harder. Your tooth fairy Loyd.

So yeah the tooth fairy came last night. So until the next tooth we will be tooth fairy free.

This letter is a symbol of how I feel. There are a lot of animals out there. Animals to make you scared...animals to love you... and animals to act like they love you and then when you are not looking attack. So to all you animals out there if you are looking to attack I got my eye on you.

This morning before the kids ran out the door mo was sitting next to me while I watched the news and said "don't watch TV watch mlmm TV." So I looked over and he was right she was so funny. She was lining up all her toys on the couch and reporting the news in her own words. She was so funny " Mlh did this...mod did this and its looking like this..." so so funny.

After the kids left although not up to par today I did laundry, cleaned up the kids rooms and bathroom. While hanging up laundry I heard the kids and it sounded like they were over the fence so I went to look for them. I peeked around he corner and they were in the sand box. So I went into the bedroom to spy on them through the window. They were laying in the box and pretending like they were sleeping. Before I could take a picture they jumped up and came inside. I think they would have fell asleep in there if the shade wouldn't have been changing. Like my daughter says stupid idiot tree. So the laundry got done and besides the incident with the permanent black marker and my naked daughter. She was naked from flooding the bathroom by plugging the sink. She was wet and took off her clothes. Soaked up all the water thats when she colored on mlh's bed and her arms and legs. So out came the magic eraser and mod helped me scrub off marker before the man came home and pitched a fit.

Made peach cobbler, stale chip chicken, pan potatoes, and squash. Did dishes and watched crabs. Not to bad of a day! I think I might start something tomorrow let you know after I pray about it tonight. Sometimes a good night sleep makes everything so clear. Mods letter back to her tooth fairy...I am so glad she is so tender and forgiving...maybe I am doing this part in her life right!

To my tooth fairy loyd
Dear Loyd, I am sorry. I guess I was rushing to much. And thank you for the money. I just want to warn you because there are coyotes out there. I even saw them in the morning. I am sorry. Love mod