Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Mom I like your kisses better!

Mom called last night and this morning I woke up and got the kids out the door to go to mom's for Sunday breakfast on Tuesday! I love it and so did the kids. We got there just as she was finishing and it was great! After we ate I did the dishes and Uncle went shopping. After getting the kids school stuff all faxed over I sat and just hung out with mom. When she was done ( she had work to do) she asked me to play Wii with her and I am glad we did. We had a great time. I did realize that she loves to win and will not tell you all her secrets just to make sure she can still kick your but. I guess she played this game a lot and even beat it. It was so fun and I haven't laughed like that in a long time. Way too funny! Her house was like a refrigerator and I miss it. So here we were all bundled up in blankets and playing wii. I beat her once and then she pounced and killed me. H and her are so alike when it comes to this. We had a great time and I can't wait to play again.

After playing Wii I was all ready to go and then mlmm was taking her time and giving my mom all these kisses she really loves my mom. She was even telling my mom how she loved her more than me and my mom and her have this little secret it goes something like this...you can only keep my kisses you have to wipe off everyone's kisses but mine. So then mlmm told her that they are best friends and to not tell her mom even though I was sitting next to them. Then my mom told her she could keep my kisses too and then she said she didn't like my kisses. Not realizing the mlh was listening to all this he piped in and said "Mom I like your kisses better!" I now that my mom didn't like this but I LOVED it! I melted my heart! Since she has mlmm I will take all I can get from mlh! Because I know that they would chose here over me any day! "She has junk food and lets us eat in bed!" this is what mod tells me!

I slowly got the kids in the car and rushed home to get the kids to practice on time. If I had my way I would have stayed there all evening and night too! I love being with my mom and doing nothing it is great that the kids were good and let us play! The man came home and informed me that he thinks he is allergic to the sutures and that he is going to take them out even if are not ready seeing how they are dissolvable ones. I guess we will only see if he is and if the swelling goes down. I can not believe how crazy the last week and a half have been all because I said it was his turn! This is what he has told me the last two weeks. I can not wait until he is healed!

Monday, August 30, 2010

"Hey you're eating that, mom put oysters in there!"

I got up this morning and decided that today was going to be the day! I got the kids up and packed a bunch of fruit and some jam and even wrote a card. then we walked to the house and i sent mo over the fence and he knocked on the door. At first I thought this was a waste of time and then he knocked again and then she came to the door. I am so glad she did. We talked and we laughed and she even gave me the confidence I needed today. I talked to her about her choice in home schooling and signing the kids up for Awanas. She would even be mod's teacher. I didn't even think mod wanted to go until we got home. She is so excited to start school and wants to go next Wednesday. I can not believe how positive she is and how she really confirmed some things for me.

When we got back to the house mo and I decided to help the man out and weed eat the grass and pick up the front yard. I didn't think it was going to be a hard thing until I got out there and then I really had a stupid moment. The weed eater died and mo thought he could start it again but he flooded it. So we decided to get in the car and drag the property. We did that for a little while and then mlmm wanted out so we got out and ate lunch. The man came home shortly after we ate and he started the weed eater again for me and then he left for practice. When he was gone the weed eater died and i thought well he started it so easy it has to be a easy thing. Well I was totally wrong... I tried and tried and then called him and then tried and tried until pop out went my shoulder. I can not believe it... I am so sore and it hurts so bad. I will not be weed eating again for him. But at least the dragging I can do and I did it pretty well!


I made dinner tonight and when the man came home with the kids tonight mo rushed in and started in... that kid ate so much right before he was done the man came in and said hey you're eating that...mom put oysters in there! I thought he was going to puke up his entire dinner. He stopped eating put his food up and went and got into the shower. Poor boy I really think he is going to be a target for a while. I even explained that I didn't put that in the food but he wasn't even going to try to finish eating it.

While sitting here and typing this out I have decided that the next thing that has to happen in my life is I need to find a church not just keep trying new ones. All though I have decided that I could be a great church consultant (someone who goes to different churches and tells them where they can improve). I do feel like this is my calling because I have been every where and I have tried good churches and great churches big sucky churches and small good churches that are dieing. I really need to just jump in and get involved some where. Right now I feel like I am the person that is wadding in to the pool with 100 kids trying not to get my hair wet. With every step in it keeps getting harder and harder. I think I need to stop wadding get out and just jump in. When its hot outside and when there are all those kids once you do you feel so much better.

Things I learned today...my neighbor has a better garden than I...I think I can do this home school thing...and I have decided to become a church consultant! Anyone looking to fix their church? You should hire me!

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Smoked Oysters, Anchovies and lots of puking!!!

Woke up with a hang over headache with out drinking a thing. I think it was because of the long day in the sun with little water and the long drive there and back. I also think it has to do with the lack of sleep do to getting up to drink a ton of water and then getting up to the restroom! Yeah! Thankfully the man helped me out by watching the kids while I slept in until 8:30. I am so glad that I have a great man. Mom called and asked us to come over but due to the headache and the mans swollen parts we stayed home and watched TV and hang out with the kids.

I can not believe how cold it is it feels like a cold winter is coming and we haven't even started to cut wood. I think we are going to be in trouble with having to buy propane and with fires and wood. I guess we will only see how cold and how much snow we get. It definitely feels like football season already. Between the cold and now games on Saturday I am sure I will be hating football by the time the Superbowl comes around. I can not get over the fact that today's high was only 69.

The man decided to go to the market and get some brauts for him and the kids because of the Steeler game this evening and too the little kids with him. When they returned the came with some gifts. He bought the kids some ice cream and the brauts and then he with a grim showed me what he got in the bag and then said well if they can eat fish eyes then they can try these. So off to the kitchen he went and called the kids in and I wish we had a video camera because man oh man. First he showed them what he got then he started in and i thought i was going to puke just by the smell. I mean YUCK! He had smoked oysters and anchovies. My brave daughter went first and she is defiantly her dads kid. Mod ate both and continued to eat. Mo got suckered into it and put a small bite of the oysters in and then ran to the sliding door to puke outside. At this time mlh can already put in a mouth full and seeing mo puke made him run and he started puking. At this time I am sitting on the couch laughing so hard. I can not even breath. Then everything calms down so I thought when mo runs into the kitchen and starts puking again. He is totally pissed off at this time because i am laughing so hard at him. Then he tells us what happened and why he is puking. I sent him to the bathroom to take a shower. While in the shower he started yelling for the man ( I guess he needed his tooth brush and tooth paste). I must tell you that the reason why he started puking again was because he snorted in and i guess a piece of the oyster he threw up earlier ended up in his mouth and that was all it took. While all this was going on mlmm came in and said YUCK you guys smell and left the kitchen. way too smart. So lesson for the day mo doesn't like canned oysters and mlh will puke when seeing someone puke and I was smart for sitting in the living room and laughing.

After a lazy day I am sitting in bed and I am so full of doubt and I just wish I could have someone tell me what to do. I know that I really should home school the kids but I am not sure if that is the thing i should do. i also am not sure if I can do it. i love mo but, I just do not know if i can do this. I wish I had a direct line to a decision maker that gave me all the answers. Maybe I should get an eight ball. Ha! that would be so funny. I think the kids would freak! they would think I was crazy! I could just see it know eight ball should we go out today?

Well I guess tomorrow i am going to meet the neighbor. I am going to finally do it wish me luck!

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Look mom its snowing outside!

I woke up this morning with out a sign of the man being off all week he needed to get somethings done this morning. He was out the door before I even saw a light on. This never happens I always see him before he leaves. When I finally got up I heard mlh and mlmm looking out the sliding glass door with that look of excitement on their faces and then mlh starting screaming "Look mom its snowing outside!" I haven't seen them so excited in a long time. Then I walked over to the slider and saw the fog and man it did look like it was about to snow. I think that the kids really like the winter up here. Unfortunately it was just fog and mist and a nice 40 degrees outside. I do find this weird because it is supposed to be the hottest month in the year and it looks like winter outside.

Got the rest of the kids up and we picked up the house and got everyone ready to head out the door to go to Ventura for some football. I think because my growing up years did not include sports i think this whole football thing is totally crazy! So for the rest of the year it will be football on Saturday in the heat and then football on Sunday! Marring a sports man has its up and downs and I am not sure where I stand. Got a call from the man saying that he would be able to go with us so out the door we went and I decided to pack lunches which was a total smart thing! ( I even feed another mom's kids who did not know it was a all day thing!)

We got to Ventura and because our team is completely unorganized we were the first ones there and looked like fools waiting for everyone else to show up late. they gave mo the wrong size pants and thankfully another mom called the coach and complained so the team mom brought him the right size ( and her kid the right size). So off went the small ( so small I couldn't even get them over his pads and laced up) and on went the new I thought he was going to freak out changing in front of everyone. If only he knew how many times mod has had to do that. So three 40 minute games later and I am a tired, tired mom. for the most part the little ones did okay. Mod kept them entertained and thankfully there were other kids. Mlmm played dead and laid all over the stands and I just kept thinking this is going to be a long season. I think next weekend will be better, a real game and cheerleaders! At least I hope so anyways!

When we got in the car I realized that I completely failed as a mom today poor mlmm is so sunburned and man does her little noise look bad. The drive home was great all the kids rested and mlmm and mlh slept the man put some ice on and I cranked the radio to keep me awake. I defiantly need to get a team shirt so I can fit in with all the other moms. I was the only one with out one. I will have to succumb to this kind of peer pressure I guess. Ha! When we got home my little ones decided to put on a cheer performance and I think that mlh singing R-O-W A DY! is going to get really old even if it is totally cute (mlmm says C- colts! and throws her arms on a high V) I really need a video camera!

So we got home after stopping off to get some trees from a craigslist posting. I got over 20 yearlings for $45. I cannot believe it I hope they all survive the winter. I can not wait to plant them next weekend. When we got home because of being so tired I just wanted the kids to all go to sleep. I really need sleep, not sure if its because of being sunburned or the lack of water today but I am drained! Hopefully a great day tomorrow!

Friday, August 27, 2010

The world is a much happier place when you figure out if you are the pin or the cushion...

The man is still not up to par and now has a new something going on down there. I can not believe this is happening. Really can not believe it. What bad luck! I attempted to clean the house and it is not going like I planed. But that seems to be the status around here. Maybe I need to stop planning. So for the day all I can say is...The world is a much happier place when you figure out if you are the pin or the cushion....I think this sums it up for me today! I know that we all have choices but I think some people really are the pin and some are the cushion and I wish to not be either. I can not even talk about my day because I am having one of those UGGGGH days and maybe tomorrow will be better. Football in beautiful Ventura! I can not wait!

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Hanging out with the my sleeping man.

I can't even talk about my day today because I feel so selfish I feel like just saying a couple of words like I am sorry. Sorry I talked you into having this done. I really am! I hope you get to go back to work soon. No you will not always look like that. It's not that bad! I will get you ice, just sleep, just give it time. I am sorry your work doesn't understand. I love you! I think this is how most of my sentences went today.

For the majority of the day we hung out and watched the man sleep. The kids kept to there selves and I am glad they did. I knew that yesterday was to good to be true. He for the most part has been a grouchy bear and is totally mad that he is still laying around and wants to be at work. He is very uncomfortable and I really do feel sorry for him. I know that after this weekend it is going to be all good. I just know it.

I took the kids to practice and made dinner and the whole day was all about the man! Please continue to pray for him!

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Surgery and an audition!

Woke up at the crack of dawn so we could get out the door. Uncle showed up and got the kids to take them to my moms house. I am glad he did I am not sure if we would have made it on time seeing how we needed to drive to Encino in 7 am traffic. ( I do wish mom would have come though mlh wasn't having any part of it and didn't want to go, if mom would have come he would have been in that car with out a tear). Mod went with us and I am glad she did. She kept me company and she really knows how to keep the man smiling. I think that she is becoming a pro. I am so proud! Well we got there right on time and seeing how none of us ate I thought we would have been able to get some food but I was wrong. Good thing I brought some crackers. So I bought mod a soda and I got a coffee in a can and we ate wheat thins and waited by the surgery exit and ate. It was fun to see everyone leaving all drugged up.

They were changing out a suit in the building and they had put down plastic wrap on the floor and mod walked up and down the hallway. It was like her very own bubble wrap hallway. She would walk slow and then fast and then do the running man in place. I just sat and laughed and laughed. In between all this we practiced her lines. The doctor was late and that is when i thought he better slow down and not rush this. I almost tripped him he was running into the surgery suit so fast. Before I knew it the doctor was out and let me know the same thing ice...ice...ice!

The man came out about an hour later and gave me this get in the car look. So I went and got the car mod went and got him some juice and off we were. After exiting the parking lot I asked him what was that all about and then he proceeded to tell me he was completely messed up and he just wanted out of there. ( the last time he had surgery he couldn't wake up and it took him like 6 hours to wake up, this time the doctor listened to him and he lightly sedated him. He also told me that while the were waiting for the doctor to arrive the nurse asked him if we took pictures. I think this was a weird thing to say, but we did take pictures just in case something else went wrong and they will be deleted as soon as he heals. Or as soon as he scares all his friends from ever having this done!


Mod did okay at the audition (I love it when she auditions for film they are always on time and oh so wonderful) I think they wanted younger but she did have the right look! I really wish she would have nailed it but oh well. Maybe with some new pictures things will get better. On the way home we stopped off and went to lunch. i really love Mexican food and so does the man. My little white girl wanted french fries that she didn't eat because she ended up eating part of my food. I swear she is so blond sometimes. When we got home Uncle brought the kids home and I took the kids to practice made dinner and then picked them up again and I really wish he felt better I do love how he takes them to all there practices. I can not believe how well he is doing tonight. I guess we will see tomorrow.

On a funny note I guess I could keep the pictures and use them for blackmail! HA

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Well the doctor messed up and its surgery this time!...." and for daddy's nuts!"

Woke up this morning and got the kids ready to take the man to the doctors this morning. I left mlh and mod with sil and we took mlmm and mo with us to the doctors. At first it was ok and the kids were doing good and then mlmm was stick of this place and wanted to go. I am not sure if it was because of all the older people that came in or the one in the wheel chair that kept smiling without teeth that freaked her out but she was done. So I took the kids into the hallway while the man was in with the doctor and I had this feeling that something was wrong and I was right. He came out and man I haven't seen him so mad as I did today. I think if he was on the munsters I could have seen the steam come out of his ears. He looked at me and said I have to get blood work done and I am having surgery in the morning the doctor messed up!

I took the kids out to the car and we drove around the building to keep mlmm quiet. Well i tried to keep her quiet she cried and cried for her daddy. I thought like calling the man and having him come and get her but he was already pissed off so I kept driving around in circles. After a couple of minutes I called him and i should have just kept driving around man his is totally mad at this doctor. He got in the car and explained to me that he showed the doctor and he said some choice words and then told him that he could just wait a couple of months and it cold fix itself. But, after telling the doctor how he feels and how he has to work for a living he quickly changed his mind and surgery it is. I am not a man but all I know is I guess it fells like someone is kicking him over and over. Which is making him sick to his stomach and there is now way he can work like that.

We got home and the man sat in the chair and ice, ice, ice. After about 20 minutes of that I decided to go shopping with Sil. I took the list and we went without the kids. we first stopped off at Verizon Sil is totally sick of my phone and I am so glad she was with me because I am getting a "like new" phone. do not get me wrong we were there almost 30 minutes before they even listened to me. then Ben (that is his name) decided to do a hard reset and guess what it didn't fix it. SHOCKING! My phone fried another SD card. He then gave me a number and told me to get in my car and call the number and get a "like new" phone. that is exactly what I did and i should be getting it in a couple of days. Yeah! I will have internet again. I will have phone calls and a phone that rings! I am so excited!

We got to Walmart and I can not believe it what a mess they are remodeling and it was so hot and I thought I was going to be sick. i couldn't even focus on what we were to get. We we got home I realized that I forgot the one thing he asked for and all I could think of was you got to be kidding me. I forgot the brauts. The brauts that I do not eat. Please kill me already. ( I already feel bad for the guy) At least I got the beer!!! I mean I hate to shop as it is. I hate spending all that money on food that just makes me fatter and fatter. I know I am the one eating it but I still hate buying it and wasting all that money. Anyone want to shop for me maybe you will do better than me!

I think that this heat is making me a mean and not caring person. Spent 30 minutes trying to get the green out of mod's hair so she can audition tomorrow. I hope that she does good. I think she has lost her glow and maybe needs to get back into classes. I just wish we had the money. The man keeps saying he wants to pull her but, I can't disappoint her like that. Plus I know she loves it. I know she needs a couple of good auditions to get her back into the game.

Stayed up late and did Sil's nails and then I sat up and watched time on my clock. Here I am up late worried about tomorrow and praying for an easy fix. I guess I feel bad for giving him so much crap this weekend and for calling him a baby and look at what happened. Well off to watch the clock some more. Please pray for the man. mlh and mlmm prayed tonight way to funny. they pray for everyone I mean everyone... they both prayed for everyone like this mom, mlmm, mod, and mom, mo, sil, warranty, ethanol, H, super chef, mlmm, mom, Nana, uncle, papa, mom, mlmm, then I chimed in don't forget daddy and then mlh said and for daddy's nuts! This prayer repeated itself only this time it was for mlh, mom, and mom, and mom, mlh! I guess my little ones think I need the most prayer because they say my name 10 more times than everyone else. Well I guess I will be saying mlh's prayer tonight... "and for daddy's nuts!"

Monday, August 23, 2010

101 degrees outside and we went to the zoo...How stupid am I?

Got up this morning and I felt like a kid going to Disneyland for the first time. I love making my kids guess where we are going. After about 10 minutes of mlh and mo guessing mlmm come in and said "HELLO we are going to see elephants!!!" then mo said "HA I was right!" which he was not right. I do not think he even thought about that. Made lunches and explained to the kids that there father was home and if they made me mad they could stay home and bring him ice. Since no one thought that was a fun thing off we went and I thought the excitement was going to kill them. I know that mo can get under anyone's skin but, man was he on a mission this morning. I have learned to ignore him and then he stops but that is not so easy for other people I have found out. I thought SIL was going to ask to go home only after 5 minutes in the car. Got gas and then got Starbucks. I can not believe it I got to drink it all by myself. Yeah!

When we got to the zoo between the bees and the sign on the window I should have said lets go to the aquarium. But, I guess I am stupid! Due to the extreme heat some animals will be harder to see that others. EXTREME heat! OH MY they were not joking! I bought the tickets anyway and then decided that I didn't want to hear a thing from ANYONE! We were going to have a great time no matter how hot it was!! I now looking back on it totally acted like my mom on a mission. I am laughing now but I still do not think anyone else is. I mean I looked at that map and figured out where we needed to go and how fast we needed to go and didn't care who got left behind I wanted to see as much as possible before the heat got to bad. I think SIL was going to either kill me or the kids. Sitting here writing this I realized that maybe we should have just slowed down and took our time but...i guess from all the rushing around with my mom I realized this was the best way to see everything and to make sure you get my money worth.

HA HA I am totally cracking myself up right now. I mean you should have seen me I bet I looked like the crazy mom with four kids and a sister in law who wanted to die. I realized through this little experiment... SIL and mo get grouchy when they get hot and hungry and I go faster when people complain. I can not believe it! I totally rushed us out of there in 6 hours and saw everything. I also decided that I was going to be my dad and not pay for tram tickets so we walked the entire zoo!!! Oh did I forget to mention it was 101 outside! I even sprayed water on the cry babies when they complained. Next time we will not go in a heat wave and we will pay to ride the tram!

When I got home the man gave me the something is wrong look and then said we need to go to the doctors tomorrow I think something is wrong. So my day has just gone from hot to hotter. Got mo to practice and when I got home I made dinner and then went back to pick him up. Sil bathed the kids and I am thankful for her even though I totally stressed her out today. I will say with all my craziness we saw a lot and ate sandwiches and grapes in the car on the way home and only spent money on the tickets and I think we got what we paid for. I know that it was totally worth it! 101 and all, I even got to use mussels I haven't used in years. It was like going to the gym with 4 kids. Pushing that stroller up and down all those roads. Yep! I guess this is one time when acting like a mom on a mission is a good thing!

Please pray for my man! I think something is really wrong and I am worried!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

"Please stop making me laugh you really are hurting me!"

Woke up this morning to the man explaining to me that I owe him and its all my fault. Unfortunately it is not my day. So it can not be my fault. I do feel bad for him! HA HA (not really, I mean really I have had for kids he can be sore for a couple of days). So he has been the worst patient he didn't want to take his medicine then complained about it and now informed me that he believes that he might have had an allergic reaction to the medicine that he is on. Why is this my fault? So here I am sitting here with the man saying ice...ice...ice. that was enough for me. I do love him and I am glad that he did this but come on really. I just hope he takes it easy so that I don't have to hear about it for ever.

Hung out with the kids this evening and waited for Sil to get here. The entire day the man kept saying the same thing to me which got me thinking. I am funny! I am so funny and he never noticed because he never listens to me and never has to just sit. All day he kept saying "Please stop making me laugh you really are hurting me!" I do not think he has laughed that hard in a long time. Or as Sil said maybe its because of the drugs he is on. What ever the case I am going to continue to say it is because of me. I am FUNNY! Didn't really hang out that much this evening due to the fact that we are going to the zoo tomorrow and because I am tired. The man woke me up so many times last night maybe he will sleep more tonight and I will not have to get up to get ice...ice...ice!

Saturday, August 21, 2010

"So you got Maya and the man fixed all in one week!" Yes I did!

Woke up early and we all cleaned up around the house. then the man went and got out veggies and I sat down and ate breakfast with the girls and then continued to clean the house. i really wanted to have it all done before we went to the doctors office. The man doesn't do well with pain and laying around so I knew this was going to be a mess. Got to moms and stayed for a hour and then drove to the pharmacy to get a ball holder. I think this has to be the low part in a mans life. the woman tells us make sure you buy the right size they can not be returned. HA way to funny! So here is the man looking at all these packages and looking at me with that deer in the head lights look. I just shrugged my shoulders laughed and then said be careful you cant return it. I mean how do you know what size you need really. They should allow you to open them up! I wish you could have been there it was a great thing to watch.

We got to the doctors office and then realized that they messed up on the amount we had to pay and although we have made or deductible they do not have it in our new insurance records. So we had to pay 1000 dollars today and all I can ask is that we get reimbursed as soon as possible. That money can not stay on our credit card. It worries me. But, with my lack of insurance help and with our never ending medical bills I guess that is how our life is going to go. They called in my man and then I sat and waited. The doctor called me back to give ma a prescription and to let me know that he needed to take his medicine no matter what and that he lost the clamp and that he was going to be swollen and sore on that side. they I said a funny ( oh good we get to sue) he didn't find it funny. I did! We were on our way back to moms so we could attend Ethanol's birthday party!

When we got there the man was starting to hurt and H was still not back. So we waited for her to return so we could sing and eat cake and ice cream. When H got home she said the funniest thing and I just have to share it. "So you got Maya and the man fixed all in one week!" Yes I did! It was the best thing for our family! I hope that the man will think that as soon as he feels better. I am sorry that we had to eat and run but I do not think the man was going to make it since the numbing meds were running off. His medicine was ready and we left with all of our kids and drove to get his medicine and I went in and I am glad I did. they had our insurance info written down wrong. So it was going to cost us like 300 dollars. then she fixed it and it cost us only 20. Yeah!

Got home and the man did the ice and beer thing and mod and the little ones watched some TV and we took care of the man. It seems like he will be okay I just hope he feels great tomorrow and doesn't fight me with the meds. The kids and the man stayed up watching a movie and I went to bed. I am starting to get tired again. I just can't live like this anymore. No church tomorrow (will be watching it on my phone). I will be staying home to help the man!

Friday, August 20, 2010

Help I am in back to school shopping H*LL!!

Well I needed to get shoes for my little girls and I thought this would be the best day to go seeing how I didn't have any boys. Well that is what I thought and boy was I wrong. Shopping for shoes with my boys is so much easier. I show the shoes and they try them on and then we go. But, not with my little fashionista. We went to 4 stores and they were the wrong color, the wrong size, they weren't cool enough, they didn't look right. Then it was I don't know what do you think? Then tears and pouting and more tears then I would answer and then she would roll her eyes at me and that was it. I knew that we were not getting what I said no matter what. I should have bought the shoes I wanted for her when I was with mo earlier this week because that is what happened. We went to target the last store and bought the exact shoes and size that I picked put for her earlier. But I didn't tell her that.

After shopping with her I do think that if we had money she would totally dress differently. I am so thankful for hand me downs I am not sure I would be able to make it if I needed to buy clothes and shoes with her. We were gone for like 3 hours for one pair of shoes. Totally crazy! I do not wish this on anyone and do not know how H does it. I also think it is becasue I do not like shopping and have never liked it. I mean I have never liked it! EVER! I am a get in and out type of person and i really hate shopping for clothes. They never fit right I am too tall an too big. I think they think tall people can't be fat because that has always been my problem. They crouch is at my knees. When I was skinny all the clothes that fit me were too short. So, Clothes and me do not go together.

With my crazy day out of the way and back at home all I want to do is relax and sleep. I do not even want to blog. Not at all! Tomorrow will be a crazy day and I hope it goes well! off to praying and sleeping! Please pray for the man tomorrow!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

I'm not going to be the judge...that's your job!

Having one of those days. I woke up this morning to my husband being an amazing man. Last night was awful I bet the humidity was in the 50's it was so sticky and I didn't sleep at all. So before leaving for work he closed all the window's and turned on the air conditioning. Yeah we are going to have a great and wonderful relaxing day. I even realized my calling and now I need a plan. I felt like coloring my hair and so I did. While coloring my hair I decided to go back to my roots. So I colored my hair darker and I am going to get my life and family back to our roots. I haven't had one of these days in forever. It was like my head was clear. I am so thankful and grateful at the side time. Mod and mlmm watched TV and we just chilled ate popcorn and relaxed. I love having days like this.

This evening I did have a melt down and cried at the bank of America lady and she was so nice. After making it through the conversation with her and fixing the problem I realized that I haven't taken care of anything at our house do to the going going going. Driving here and driving there this needs to stop. I will be having to take Family days where I can sit pay bills and let the kids chill. I think it is good for everyone. Including me!!!

The man came home and said man you are in a great mood. After thinking about it for a while I decided that yes I am in a good mood. The air has been on and the house is cool and I have enjoyed the quiet. I totally miss mlh he has been staying with my mom and having a great time but I do miss him terribly. Can't wait to see him on Saturday. Decided to teach Maya a new trick today and she did it on the first try. I love how smart she is. Love it Love it. I think that I will try to teach her a new trick every month. She know sit, down, stay, and know up. Next will be turning. My mom had her dogs doing this and I think it is good for her. She is healing up very nicely and seems to be a little calmer. We will see if it stays.

I'm not going to be the judge...that's your job! this is a great quote and I decided to add God to the end. I think I am going to write this on a sign and put it in my house. this is a great reminder that I am not the judge...not even what you are thinking about me or saying about me. I will not judge you because that is not my job. every time I think about opening my mouth and saying something stupid I am going to say this saying first. It will hopefully help me with my issues with trust. Because if God is judging me and he is judging you then why should I worry about what you are saying about me...Right!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

I have decided to except applications for a new best friend...

Woke up this morning and made a deal with the kids so we got the house cleaned first thing. This makes me really happy! Mom wanted me to go to the beach today with H but like I said yesterday way to many plans today. I got the floors mopped and then it was time for us to go to practice. Drove the kids through the drive thru and then off we went to practice. Mlmm and I sat inside and she played with all the toys that they have. I can not believe how good mo and mod are. Mod went in first and she is getting good on that guitar. Then it was time for mo and mod played with mlmm. Mo got to record his time today and he is so gifted. I can not believe it. while we were waiting for mo to finish the next student came in and he could not believe that mo was only 10.

Got the kids back into the car and we were going to meet grandma but she was running late so we had time to go to the store but we were not told until we were already at the meeting place. So seeing how mlmm was asleep we went to the house and allowed mlmm to take a nap in the car. After 20 minutes I took mlmm out of the car and then took her in the house. The man came home and took mo to meet grandma and I continued to clean around the house. Mo told mod where the man was going tonight and she sat and pouted until he said okay you can go. So the man and mod went to the car show and took the Fairlane and I think she really loves hanging out with her dad.

It was nice to only have mlmm tonight. Too bad she took a nap today, I bet she would have been asleep already. The man and mod home and I guess it was too hot to stay any longer. But they did have a great time! Yeah! After a very tiring week and realizing where I am in my life I have decided to except applications for a new best friend...

Must be willing to do the following:
1.Call me to see how I am doing, even if I do not call you.
2.Believe me when I say my phone is a pile of crap!
3.Be willing to pray for me and bug me about getting my life in order.
4.Must be willing to listen to me and steer me down the right path.
5.Must not know anyone in my family or care to know them.
6.Must call me and encourage me
7.must love my kids.

I hate calling on the phone but I am willing to do the same. I mean really is this a hard request? Is it? Well that is what I am looking for. Let me know if you would like to apply!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

"You cant be fat and mean."

Got up this morning and it should be illegal to be up this early. Mom called late last night to let me know that she wasn't going to the beach with me because she needed to watch the kids for H. Total bummer no beach today! Mlh wanted to stay with mom so I packed a bag and I drove to moms and dropped off mlh and mod stayed while I drove mlmm and mo to my doctors appointment. I really hate going to my doctors alone. He over books and I have to wait for ever. Also, it sucks that I have the kids... Kids and appointments, I used to be the one that would be pissed off and here I am with my kids... This is a lesson that I am continuing to learn. So because of my insurance change I have to go get my blood done tomorrow after I call and find out where I can go. I think insurance companies SUCK! So if my blood work comes out great I will not have to return for 6 months. That never happens. I feel like this is a great blessing. Hopefully my blood cooperates.

Went to the store with mo and mlmm and got her some shoes and bought Ethanol a birthday present. I can not believe how close his birthday is. I feel like summer just started. Don't get me wrong I really believe that I only feel like this because it is ending and I am so not ready for it. Since mod didn't come with me this morning I will have to get her some new shoes later on this week. I really hope she picks some cute and reasonable shoes. They cost so mush and buying shoes for four kids is crazy. I still need to get shoes for mlh but he is a joke to buy shoes for and I will probably get him shoes when SIL is here. I also know he wants boots so I will be looking in that direction.

Quickly got in the car to return to moms to get mod. This football thing is crazy. I really hope that next year I meet some people so we can car pool. going everyday and sitting there is not for me. I ran into moms and they were eating and because of Maya getting spayed yesterday I needed to get home as quick as possible. It wouldn't have been a big deal but, having Abbey in the kennel with her made me really worried. Because of not going to the beach I had to leave her. So went in and said hi to everyone and then rush rush rush.

Got home and I am glad I did pore Maya. I do not think I will be leaving her for a couple of days. She is the dumb dog that will cost me more money ( licking, jumping, running, etc...) I think she is so lucky to have my daughter caring for her. She even cried when she saw her incision. I thought she was going to be sick. Literally like throwing up! So need to keep Abbey the mama dog away from her until her incision clears up so she wont lick it so much.

Got some laundry done and as I look around the house all I want to do is scream! I really hope that I can catch up tomorrow and get this house in order. Oh wait! tomorrow I need to get to music lessons and then I need to meet the grand parents so mo can go to a music festival. I am grateful for them and there encouragement with him and music. I just wish I could find someone here that could inspire him to practice he is so gifted. I mean it would truly amaze you. He plays with a talent only God could have given him. Then after meeting the grandparents I need to go to cheer. I also need to do laundry, clean the house, do dishes, organize mod's clothes so I can find out what she needs, call our old insurance co, call our new insurance co and get my blood work done! Ha I bet I don't get anything done that I need to get done. Well we will see.

While watching TV tonight I heard a great saying and I made me think. "You cant be fat and mean. Fat people are jolly for a reason Fat repels people but joy attracts them. you can either be fat and jolly or a skinny B its your choice." Seeing how I am not skinny at this point in my life maybe I need to be more Jolly! Ha this is such a great saying. I defiantly will be using it!

Monday, August 16, 2010

Mom MLMM wont get dressed and I can see her YUCKY!

This morning I woke up and took Maya to the clinic to get her fixed so I can tag the dogs. I can not believe how much it costs to get dogs tags in LA county. They have to be fixed, micro chipped, shots up to date and then you get to pay the fee to have them tagged. Well Abbey is already fixed so its Maya's turn. So we got to the clinic and its too bad that it is two towns over because the vet is really nice. Got to the clinic early and filled out the papers. After sitting almost an hour it was our turn. I didn't mine the wait we did get there early and they see sick dogs first. So after checking her in my phone rand and mom wanted me to come over so I could do her nails.

Got back to the house and then off to moms. I couldn't stay today I needed to go shopping and pick up Maya before practice. So once again a busy busy day! Tomorrow should be a quieter day. Mom is going to go with me to my Doctor's appointment and then we are taking the kids to the beach. It should be nice and relaxing day. There is something so calming about the beach. Also I haven't gotten to do anything with mom this summer it seems like. So I am counting down the minutes until tomorrow.

Got to Walmart and got most of the shopping done but I forgot our list so I hope I got everything. While in Walmart we got the call to pick up Maya. Got to the clinic and I thought she was going to jump into my arms. Now we have to see how she does this week. I hope she isn't stupid and lick herself to death. Brought her home and got the food out of the car just in time for mo to go to practice. mod stayed another night which isn't a big deal seeing how I am getting her in the morning to go to the beach.

Got the kids in and out of the shower tonight because mlh wanted to watch wipe out! Or as he calls it big balls! While getting there clothes mlh came and was so upset. He got dressed and then said "Mom MLMM wont get dressed and I can see her YUCKY!" the man said that this is my fault because I always say don't show your privets that's Yucky! So I guess this is the new word for it at our house. A Yucky! Way too funny! Got the kids all ready to watch big balls and then we went to bed. Can't wait until tomorrow!

Sunday, August 15, 2010

I need a nap in the worst way.

Made breakfast for the kids mlmm wanted bacon and mlh wanted french toast and mo wanted nothing. So there was breakfast. French toast and bacon! I decided that since we didn't make it to church I would watch Church on my phone and then my phone crashed again. I hate my phone! After fighting with it for awhile mo and the man decided to come in from squirrel hunting so we could watch a movie. Sat and watched a movie. I continued laundry and I am not sure if it is because of the going going going we have been doing but what ever it is i am not doing anything today. Nothing! I am so tired. I need a nap in the worst way.

I miss mod and her funny sayings. I also miss her hugs and smile. Hopefully I will get her tomorrow. So after watching movies and just chilling I have decided that I really need to get some energy to get this house cleaned instead of doing nothing but I am way to tired. I am even going to bed early due to the lack of napping. So nothing great today except I got to rest and hang with my movie watcher. Also the man and the neighbor decided that they needed new guns. So I guess that will be a new purchase this week. Praying for a great week and for God to show me something!

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Gas Gas gas

Today was for the most part was a Lazy Saturday! The man and mo had to go to Mo's weigh in for football which left me with no car so no veggies. I will have to get them sometime next week. Thankfully our veggie lady is really nice and agreed to keep them for me. nlmm woke up as soon as the man left witch totally sucks because I think mlh would have slept in until 10 he was so tired. I made the little one breakfast and before i knew it the man and mo were already back. i got mod'd room started and mo stripped his sheets and we got his room done. Now I only need to get the rest of the house cleaned. Not being home and not being able to clean while the man is asleep makes it very hard to get things done. Mod stayed with my mom and I bet she is having a great time alone with mom.

The rest of the day was spent with mo and the man trying to shoot squirrels and I did laundry. I can not wait to get caught up. Our neighbor came over this evening for dinner and he is going to come over next weekend and help turn under my garden that we lost so I can start over. I am so sad that we lost everything. I hope that once we get this squirrel thing under control and the watering thing I will have a great garden next year. Now I need to get dirt. Praying for money for that.

Got the kids in bed and know I am sitting in bed wishing I was a man. I have the worst stomach ache and I wish I could just let er rip. I hate having stomach problems. I even told the man how bad my stomach hurt and he said go ahead and act like a man. Well with no sign of relief I am going to eat more tums and try to go to bed. I really do wish I was a man tonight.

Friday, August 13, 2010

YES THAT'S MY KID!!!

Went to moms this morning, she called me last night and asked me if I wanted to come over and get mod's herbs dried. She has a dehydrator and I said well sure. I can not believe how busy I feel like I have been. I really want to stay home and rest. I guess I will be staying home soon. They kids went swimming and I got the herbs all cleaned and ready to dry. Then my uncle and I went to Walmart so I could get some jars for the spices and some other stuff. It was nice to go shopping and get in and out. Well something like that. they have the greatest clearance on everything. I mean everything! they are remodeling and you should see all the food I got for cheap!

When I got back I was confronted by mo crying and yelling and that is when I new it was time for me to get going...I mean we had to go anyway but if I would have not made that mess with all the herbs I could have just put him in the car and rushed home. My son! It's days like this when I become BIG MAMA BEAR and totally want to scream YES THAT'S MY KID!!! It is really hard for me to get anyone to understand him so here is the only place where I can vent. So here it goes... I know how he is and when you don't listen to him and just assume that it was his fault. HE will lie to you, lie to make you shut up and stop yelling at him. He is only 10 and not 20. even if he acts like 20 he is only 10!!! Come on he is a boy and he is fragile, loving, talented oh so talented and he is very emotional. But you only see the JERK! The kid who cries and yells and throws fits. He's my kid and when you hurt him you are hurting me. Please be careful when talking to him because he remembers word for word what you say. Word for Word! Also know that if he had a diagnosis like autism or something you could see like down syndrome you would treat him differently. Just remember I love you and so does my kid so please help me by loving him. Because right now everything in life is killing him!!! He already tells me how he wants to die and if you aren't on his side then we can't come around. I wish to not bury him this year because he had a melt down.

Please he has a hard enough time at home! I guess I am saying I need Help! I know that I get mad at him but I am his mom. A mom of four wild kids. Mo needs more time with one on one and that is why he is going to be home schooled. To keep him from being bullied this year at school. I do not believe having people making fun of him will make him stronger I think it will only make him sadder. I was bullied when I was younger and I believe that is something you never get over. I was chesty and over weight and my self esteem was nonexistent until high school. (thanks to a great boyfriend and great friends who allowed me to be me) I will not allow my kids to go through that. I also was a sad kid because of the secrets that I was forced to keep. I wish to not have my kids think of dieing and trying when he is in the 5th grade. I need a church family! That is my new prayer. I need a church Family!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Girls have bras and you have a ball bra!!!

woke up this morning and my mom woke up mo so he could play Wii with and him before he went home today. I think that it was a good ending for mo. I know that this football thing is hard right now but I know that it will get better. He also needs to be around kids. Kids with the same goal. Beating the other team! So I needed to go and get some things for mo and his pads and mom kept the little kids so I could run quickly and return. Mo and I went to Dicks so I could get a chin strap and some pad chonies. I can not believe how much money football costs. Holy moly! I am going to be broke from this. I can not believe it truly can not believe it.

So we got home and my mom made the funniest comment and I have to share it "Girls have bras and you have a ball bra!!!" she told mo this because he was non stop telling my mom all about his pads and how he got to hit someone yesterday and he was just in her face over and over and over. this is the moment that everyone started laughing and laughing. I mean most kids don't want to tell there grandma they get to wear compression shorts or anything like it. But not my kids they are an open book... wonder where they get that from? Hum.

So we got in the car and drove home to practice and I had to take the kids today the man was at work and I will hopefully never have to do that again. Having all four kids and the little ones running around and with my hurt foot. I could not chase after then so it was a nightmare. A complete nightmare, mlmm fell and mlh had to pee and there are no toilets. So we went to Jack in the box to use the restrooms and to get the little ones some food. All I can say about that is have you had there funnel cakes? If that doesn't add a size to your butt i don't know what will. YUM! It's like going to the fair? So we got back to the field they kept running around and I really wanted to run away! You know say "whose kids are those?" Ha Ha! to bad they all look alike.

So I got the kids in bed all by my self with no fighting and I am so ready to have my head hit the pillow. Tomorrow is going to be here before I know it!

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

We have internet! Its a miracle!

Yeah we had internet and then my computer crashed with all my saved blogs. AHHHH! Thankfully I have most of them written down so now it is just a matter of when I will have time to type them in. No beach for me! My foot is really jacked up. I guess it will be a good thing I am not if walking on it would be a good thing. Maybe I will get the laundry done and the house cleaned. HA yeah right! A cleaned house! Mom called and after the kids are done with practice tonight we are going over there so see uncle Pete and then the kids can see him tomorrow. So, I am staying the night with my mom so that mo and mod can see Uncle Pete one more time before he leaves in the morning. I really feel bad for mo. He sat and cried this evening because he feels like he was jipped out of time with his Uncle and I totally understand. I know how that feeling feels and I have to remind him that even when others rub it in your face you need to know that they are the ones that are jealous. People that spend that much time bragging are only doing it to show off to you because they are jealous of you. I also have to explain that to him when he is the bratty kid that is showing off and bragging. I will never understand why some kids take this better than others but he definitely hold his emotions on his shoulders and gets hurt very easy. Which people take as him being a jerk.

So we got to see "and Him" ( this is the new name mlmm gave Uncle Pete, I guess all day long she kept saying and Him instead of uncle pete. I think it is so funny that she gave hime the perfect name for my blog. Ha how funny to not have a name and only be called and him. Well I think that my kids really love and him. It was so funny to see his reaction to how much food they eat. I do not think that he has ever seen that before. I left for moms house right after practice and they didn't even get to eat dinner. Or as my kids keep telling my mom "I never feed them!" So that is why they are skinny! Ha! I will admit that I do not babysit them a keep a daily schedule and feed them at 7, 11, and 4! I mean I sometimes skip meals. But when they are hungry I do not send them to bed with out feeding them. Hello I buy like 6 gallons of milk a week. I think it is because my mom does not have all the healthy foods that we have and my kids get to eat JUNK! Where we do not have the money for that kinds of food so they do not get to eat it. I also think that having the ice cream that my mom has also makes a difference. So I do not starve my kids and i find it totally funny that my kids keep telling people this. I guess it is working because the get to eat and eat when they say it. Which is less food for me to buy... so keep saying it! HA

So mlmm did not want to go to bed with my mom and I think that she is really going though a mommy phase. I will not tell my mom this but, about time. They have always chosen her. Mo wants to run away to her house and mlmm never cries when I leave only when she leaves, or when I take her out of the house to come home. So it was nice to have her want mommy. I will miss it soon! they grow up so fast! I mean as she keeps telling me her birthday is coming up! she also wants earrings for her birthday! I keep telling her you have to be 5! Praying I can stand firm! I mean she doesn't need to be walking around with only one ear done.

I am sleeping in my moms house and it is nice and I forgot how much I love the noise of the whole house fan! It is so nice just to hear the noise. After a crazy day with the computer and with coming here so late I am trying to keep my eyes open so I can finish this! Well, and him leaves tomorrow and I have to go home and try to get caught up! this driving everyday is taking its tole. I am not sure how long I can keep up with this pace. I am not looking to going back to work in 2 years it really has me worried. I was hoping to get stuff done! but as I was told as a child you can rest when you are dead! so since I am still living I will keep moving onward!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Oh my Gosh! Funny fat girl Fall!

Went to mom's today to see my uncle and it was way worth it. Unfortunately he left to see a movie and I really needed to get home and get the kids to practice. Today no swimming with uncle Pete (I guess yesterday wore him out all those kids in that pool, jumping and hanging on him.) and my niece and nephew left back to Bakersfield. So we watched some TV and allowed the kids to relax. But even with all that relaxing I needed to get home. So on the way out the door I looked back to answer a question and tripped on the edging that I put in and OMGosh you should have seen me fall. It was like on a movie and all I can say is "HAHAHAHA It's Funny because she's fat."

My poor mom didn't know if she should laugh or be worried. Mo and mod ran over and mo was like stop laughing my moms hurt. Ha I couldn't even get up because I was laughing so hard. I was laughing because it was funny. I mean hello stupid you put that edging in to keep people from taking that short cut and here you are taking that short cut. I also think watching my mom laugh so hard also made it funnier. I finally got up and then realized that my foot was hurt and that I pulled a SIL. That is what we call it since she fell and broke her foot. So I started to drive home and then realized that I left ABBEY at moms house and had to turn around to get her. I can not believe how bad my foot hurt and driving home made me realize how much you need feet.

Got home and the man didn't think my foot was that bad, so he touched my foot and touched my big toe and that was it i thought I was going to die. So now i am sitting with my foot freaking out because I need to get the house cleaned and I really don't want to go to the doctors tomorrow. Well we will have to see. Mom kept mlmm so it was just mlh and i tonight. The kids went to practice and mlh and I hung out. He is so funny and I really enjoy listening to him and all his stories.

Moms going to the beach tomorrow. I hope I get to go! We will see. Hurt foot laying in bed and a laugh that made my stomach hurt. So worth the laugh. its always funny to see people fall to bad it wasn't recorded. I could have won some money.

Monday, August 9, 2010

Uncle Pete!!!

Got the kids up and out to door for a day of swimming and hanging out with my uncle. I am sad that I will only get to see him for a couple of days but at least i get to see him. We got to the house and I am not sure who was more happy. The kids or my mom. You would have thought I had been gone for a year. My dad definitely can not handle all the people and kids and it makes me sad. All the kids got in the pool and rough housed my my Uncle and I really enjoyed seeing everyone. Super Chef made lunch and I it was nice to have the kids in the pool with the uncles they are going to sleep so good. Then before I new it... it was time fore us to go to practice.

I feel like all I am doing is running and running and I cant seem to slow down. Even while camping no slowing down. I really need a vacation. I need to go some where and just sit and sit. I feel like everything is spinning out of control and I just want to spend 5 minutes cleaning my house and taking care of me! I need a maid. I can not believe how much our stuff smells like smoke and camp fire. I will be washing and washing and washing. I will be doing this for a week. It probably wouldn't be such a big ordeal but if I am going to be gone all week again it will take me forever. So it will be a long week of laundry, driving and family.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

And this little pig went wee wee wee wee all the way home.

And this little pig went wee wee wee wee all the way home. We woke up this morning and since I really wanted to get on the road so we could stop off and shop. I had the kids eat cereal and got everything all packed up. Thankfully I had a great team and since I have done this packing up thing before it went quick. I put everything in black trash bags and we closed the camper up and we were on the way. We got back to Grant Grove and the man sat outside in the car with the kids so Sil and I could get some more shopping done. I got something for my uncle, mod and for me! Then back into the car we went.

Driving, driving, driving, thank you mom and my family for the xm and for all the Nintendo DS's that we have. I made for a very quiet drive. Well mostly quiet. (Singing and singing I LOVE CHOCOLATE MILK!!!) They love to sing! I think the man is going to kill me for listening to Hits one! But I love it and so do the kids! Mo had a melt down right before we got to Dinuba to get gas and subway. He totally freaked out and had a melt down. But other than that quiet! Dropped of Sil in Bakersfield and that is when I begged the man to stop off and get us some awesome Snow Shack! I totally miss Bakersfield just for the snow shacks. I mean everyone that drives through needs to get one they are AWESOME! Well talked to my family and there was no way to go moms on the way home but will be going tomorrow.

On the way home we heard a load OMG and then a cry and a Pull over quick mlh is puking. That was the end of the quiet and we pulled over and then I am so glad we had clothes in the back of the car and I am glad he tried to puke in the cup from the snow shack. I am not sure what I would have done if he would have puked ever where. Cleaned the car and then cleaned him and back in the car we went. More phone calls and then we finally got home. My bed never looked so good. I got the kids all bathed and you should have seen the dirt that came off of them. YUCK! Got in the shower and started laundry. I have a busy day tomorrow and i think my house is never going to get cleaned. Going to moms in the morning. Going to bed early and I just know I will be sleeping so good!

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Yes mo that is exactly what I wanted with my fish!

Well we got up this morning and I made coffee and breakfast burritos and I was the one ready to go! I was ready to go see the Boyden Cavern! I was the one saying lets go lets go! I realized that mod was not out of the camper. Usually Sil is the last one ready but not today... today it was mod. I went into the camper and saw someone who sounded like my daughter, was the same height as her but in no way looked like her. She looked like the stay puffed marshmallow man her face was so swollen and her eyes were shut. After a dose of benadryl and having her cry I realized that the mosquitoes that got her got her good. She was swollen all day and her arm was swollen and I think this will take days to go away. I think that the night fishing and mosquitoes are a bad combo for her. I even sprayed off on the kids. She must have some sweet smelling blood! It took a couple of minutes to convince her to come out and that although she looked bad and felt bad it was going to go away. The man said she looked like the mask and that did not make her laugh. ( Mask the movie with Cher)

So after breakfast and cleaning up to make sure we don't get bears in our food. Away we went! I really could have used a shower this morning but that did not happen and I really wish we had a way to use the bathroom! It would make this city girl so happy! We got in the car and the man brought his fishing gear incase there was time to fish and we got to the cavern and found out that if the dogs have water in the car and we park in the shade it would be okay for us to leave then! ( wish I would have known that yesterday) So we left the dogs in the car and got to the line for the cavern so late that everyone had already started on the hick up the mountain. It was a 1/4 mile straight up. I thought I would have had a hard time being so fat and all but it was a piece of cake. I am so glad that this weight is caused from my body being stupid and not my own fault from eating too much. One of these days I hope this thyroid fixes its self. After having mod it took about 3 years and then it went into hyper mode and I lost all the weight until I got pregnant again. Since that will not be happening again maybe I will get lucky and loose all this weight and it will stay gone for a while!

So we did the cavern thing and believe it or not mo did not give me any crap I think he thought it was pretty cool. We even got to take the explore root on the way back. Next time we go to Kings Canyon I want to see the Crystal Cavern. I will say having little ones and trying to make sure they didn't fall off or though the rails was hard so I am glad we got to all go together. Mlmm did fall due to the person in front of her. But, all and all a great time! Doing the small cave hopefully will ease them into the larger ones. Besides I think you have to be I think 13 to do the Chrystal Cavern. So, we have a couple of years to go!

After the cave the man and mo had me drop them off on the side of the road to fish. The rest of us went to camp. On the way to camp we stopped off and saw Grizzly Falls and I wish we had lunch with us because it was so beautiful. I got to talk to some people that were on the cave tour with us and I love people from overseas. Then after a wonderful 15 minutes I decided that I really need a vacation and Hawaii is looking like a great time. I would love to Italy and since that is never going to happen (at least not for a long time) Hawaii is looking like a great time.

Hung out at the camp and then it was time for us to go and pick up the man. We drove to where we dropped them off at and then we waited until they came to the road. It was a good thing because mlmm and mlh really needed a nap. As I saw the man come to the road I saw mo with some fish and then I saw him swinging the cleaned fish in to bushes and I thought... Yes, mo that is exactly what I wanted with my fish! How did you know I wanted some bushes with my fish! I told Sil and the man what I thought and SIL got it but I really think that the man thinks my jokes are not funny!

So we finally got to eat fish tonight and it was great. The man and the kids even ate some fish eyes and the fish face meat. I really think watching the travel channel has made them brave. Hey at least they ate the fish. Mlmm and mlh really liked it and that was surprising to me. I really think my kids eat things most toddlers wont even try. I am so thankful and grateful that they eat real food. How many kids do you know would rather eat a salad? So fish, my chili and some brauts for dinner. All I can say is when the man said he was going to fish every day and what he caught is what we were going to eat. I am so glad I packed for the worst case and brought so much food. We would have starved if I would have counted on the fishing. I will give him some room to wiggle out of this one since the ranger did tell us that because of the late summer the fish has been scarce where we were. So he lucked out there. I am just giving him crap!

So we had some marshmallows and went to bed pretty early. From the lack of sleep last night and from the early mornings I am so tired and so ready for a real shower and for a real bed. Home bound tomorrow!

Friday, August 6, 2010

That was all he could stands and he could stands no more!.... White Trashing it!!!

Woke up this morning and decided that we were going to do something awesome. The man woke the kids up took them fishing first thing and that made it very nice for me and the little ones. He even started the car away from the camp. So we stayed in bed and I read and started looking for what we could do and see today. The early bird woke up and we took the dogs outside went to the restroom and I started making breakfast, French toast. I am not sure why but it tastes so different when you camp! So, the man came back to camp we ate breakfast and I asked what are plans were. I think that if the man had his way he would just stay at camp and fish all day. But having kids and wanting to see things I won and we drove first to see what we needed to do about seeing a cave tour and then drove to the big Sequoias.

I am not sure what it was but man that drive made me so sick. We got to Grant Grove and walked around. Bought hot dogs and I did a little Christmas shopping. Got my mom and dad something and then the man did the hurry up I'm pissed off face and I got him something and told Sil that on the way out we would have to stop and continue our shopping. I guess while shopping mlmm and mlh decided to spill their drinks and then the worker cleaned it up and right after he was done mlh spilled his drink again. I swear that boy spills everything. I do not think he can go a day with out spilling something. So with dogs and kids in car off we went to see The General Grant tree and driving again we went.

When we got to the big trees I had a flash back of my parents making me do all this stupid stuff like seeing the General Grant tree. (looking back I realize how lucky I am to have gotten to see that stuff but when I was younger I totally hated it!) When we got there we saw that the dogs could not go and although it was only like 70 outside and we were in the shade the man did not want a big fat ticket when we got back for having the dogs in the car. So Sil and I took the kids on a little walk. After about 5 minutes I realized that this wasn't going to be fun. Mo was already giving me crap. He was saying the exact same things that I said to my mom. At the time I was completely pissed off but looking at it now I see where I could have fixed my attitude to help his. I think that because the man did not come he did not see the reason to go with me.

So we saw the Giant trees and after about the fifth one mo was no longer interested and then we saw the cabin and I think that, that was all he could stands and he could stands no more. When we got to the General Grant tree then he said what I am going to call a when I was younger moment. He said "you mean to tell me we walked all the way up here to take a picture of this tree! This tree looks like all the other trees we saw oooooooh we saw a big tree!" then he wanted to not take a picture. (the only reason why i got a picture is because of the strangers that gave him greif) then off he went and I think Sil was going to freak out. I told her i was not worried and that he would be back or at the car. So we walked the walk back saw some more big trees and then got to the car. I totally find it funny now, I think it is because I know that I gave my parents the same attitude and probably said the same thing. I guess he does have a little of me in him. ( Man I will be in trouble when he is older).

So we drove the windy road home and got the camp all set up. while siting around Sil bought those repel sticks and I wish we would have not used them... I had said we should have put them in the fire pit and the man and Sil disagreed with me and they stuck it in the ground. Well after a couple of minutes that is when the accident happened and i wanted to scream I TOLD YOU SO! So mlmm tripped over it and the stick stick to her skin and it burned the crap out of her skin. She will be scared for life from this. She is such a trooper. She didn't scream or anything she just cried a little and then the man and I got in to it. I think that mod was going to freak out because it was her day and it was her fault but all she did was cry and say "I don't want to play anymore. It's not my fault!!!" So thankfully I bought a first aide kit and my mom had given me a kit that had burn cream because I am not sure what I would have done. So fixed her leg up and we moved the stupid stick into the fire pit like I said.

we went to the river to watch the kids fish and after watching people swim yesterday decided to get swimsuits on and get into the river. So away we went... Drinks towels and a camera in hand away we went. So one by one we got in and I have to say watching my husband slowly get into the water and then get to his business and say no! Was so funny! He only got so far and then quit! But not me. I followed in and right before getting in I realized that we looked like a bunch of White Trash! Taking a bath in the river. We weren't and didn't have soap but that is the image that came to my mind and I think that it was so funny! Because of how tan my kids are and seeing how SIL in half Mexican I would really have been the only white trash in the river! Ha so there I was white trashing it and trying to get my body into that cold cold water. When I got pushed in and that was that. It felt so go. Cold but good and I know that I am going to sleep so good tonight. we got back made dinner and Sponged bathed the kids. The man took the kids again to fish and I got the little ones in bed and I am so tired.

I have decided that although I never understood why the man liked to go so early I now know. There is nothing more upsetting and rude than having campers come to the camp late and wake you up by setting up tents and then parting it up. I can not believe it. I dislike stupid rude people! So now that I was woken up and totally in a bad mood it also sucks to have them make this BIG fire and light up your camper. Man oh man I will never never set up camp late and then party. NEVER!!!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Why is it when you are tired and just want to sleep someone comes in and wakes you up so happy it makes you want to punch their lights out?

Why is it when you are tired and just want to sleep someone comes in and wakes you up so happy it makes you want to punch their lights out? Well that's how I felt this morning... the man jumped out of bed and I rolled out. Got the rest of the house packed and then out the door and on the road. Got to moms fed the birds and since the carpets were still wet I put the dogs outside. Hoping that this was okay off we went. I am sad I missed all the fun in Vegas and I feel like I'm gonna keep missing out but whatcha gonna do...what we do for our kids. Didn't get to go to Vegas because of football and now we are leaving as they return. Hopefully I get to see my uncle next week before he leaves.

So we got to sils house so late according to the man but on time to me and beside no matter why we are late its not my fault. Its all sils fault! Oh and its her birthday! So happy birthday its all your fault! She got donuts for the kids for breakfast and Starbucks for me yeah! No one to share it with and I drank it with out some one spilling it on me. Off on the long drive we went... stopped off and got gas in Dinuba and then the fun started we took a detour that is what the man called it. Ha why is it that men just wont admit they are lost? Why too funny. So back on track we went and then more driving. Having a daughter that gets as sick as you do in the car totally sucks. pulled over and then being the great mom that I am I decided to switch places with her and let her sit in the front seat. Drove the rest of the winding road to kings canyon in the back and we froze the man out.

I have to have the air on and he likes the windows down. It doesn't matter how warm it is outside. Even when it is 100 out side yuck! So we got to the camp finally and I have no phone no internet and it is awesome. The man and I disagreed with the camp site and we moved the camp when i found a site next to the bathroom which is very important when you have little ones or when you do not have a bathroom in the trailer that you can use. We have a bathroom in the trailer but it is a canister and there is no way the man is going to pick up a canister and dump it so no using the water or toilet. Our next camper will have a full bathroom!!!

So off went the man and the older kids to go fishing while I set up camp and dinner. I love having sil around she entertained the little ones while i cooked! It is so nice. since being over the limit per camp site decided to make nice with the camp host. offered him and his wife dinner and they didn't bother us about getting a larger site.

No showers at this camp site so wiping down the kids with wipes tonight. Tomorrow I will try something different. Put the little kids to bed while the man went night fishing and with no fire and the little ones asleep i find myself tired and ready for the older kids to return so I can get them to bed also. We will see how tomorrow is hopefully awesome!

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

it is all my fault!

Woke up the kids so we can get the carpets cleaned and I thought it would only take a couple of hours so I told mo that if we get it done we could be home by 12-12:30 and then he could play on the computer until it was time to go to practice. so out the door we went and man I should have kept my mouth shut. It took longer than I thought and man I forgot how tiring it is to clean carpets. After getting them all cleaned i returned the cleaner and then we had to go to Walmart again. We returned a few things and then got the things we needed for the weekend and of coarse it is was pasted 12 by now and what was I thinking.

Picked up the dogs and drove the kids to the house and then mo realized what time it was and that is when all the drama started. He totally freaked out and man do I mean freaked out. He called me a liar and cried and man I then realized at that very moment that this is going to make it so very very hard to pack and get them to practice with him freaking out. Then he said something that made me completely laugh he acted just like my dad and said " its all your fault!" I said "no its not my fault this is life and I did not mean to come home so late." then he said "if its not your fault then whose fault is it! it has to be someones fault" This is what my dad believes and I think that it is the funniest thing ever! He doesn't believe in accidents only faults. No room for error. So then i said okay you are right it has to be someones fault. So today is my day it is all my fault! Who want tomorrow. Then mod chimed in and said Ill take Friday! then mlmm and mlh decided that they wanted Sunday and Tuesday! then mod thought it would be good for mo to have Monday so she could have Monday fun day! Then she also thought that SIL should have Thursday and the man could have Saturday because he is always home and mod wanted him to be home that way we would have a day for everyone! So we have a day for everyone and all day tomorrow when ever something happens it will be Sil fault!

This made mo so happy that maybe this will fix his attitude problem that he has. When mod got out of the car she kept saying its all your fault mom. then mo joined in and now I am up late packing the trailer for tomorrow and it is all my fault. The man got the kids to practice and I continued to pack. the best part about today is that we are leaving in the morning after we stop off at moms to feed the birds. No matter what happens tomorrow it will not be my fault it will be Sil fault! Also I love the fact that the man thinks we will be out the door at 4 in the morning. Ha he is so funny, I think it will be closer to seven! So good night everyone and if anything has happened to you today remember it is all my fault!

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

4:30 wake up call!

Got woke up to mo handing me the phone saying its dad! Then I looked at the clock and realized that it was only 4:30 in the morning and I could have killed him. What the heck was he thinking waking the house up so early! well after having the man yell at me this morning I am in a crappy mood and I am so tired. The conversation went something like this...I am not doing this again! That dog kept me up all night long. She went in and out that dogie door and then she sat and whaled all morning long! I haven't slept at all and I HAVE TO WORK! I at first almost laughed at him and now that I am blogging this evening I am so laughing because it is funny. But this morning not so funny! I was completely pissed off yelled at him and then went out to the couch and made mo go back to bed and turned off the TV. He was mad at me and I guess I do not blame him i would be also. So back to bed I went and did not succeed. So hello 4:30!

Got the kids bags packed and then made a big mistake by fighting with the kids and then we packed up and went to moms house. Dropped off the dogs and then went to the store. Picked up a steam cleaner and then back to moms. I thought I would surprise mom and clean her carpets. I know that she loves it and I thought I would be nice for the house to be cleaned when they return. (their house is always clean but carpet always make it look cleaner for some weird reason). So I started cleaning the upstairs and then it was time for us to leave for practice. so away we went to the house and i decided that it would be nice for the dogs to go on a trip. So before it was time to leave I cleaned the bird cages and then off to practice.

While the kids were at practice I fixed dinner for the little kids and then it seamed like the time passed before my eyes. Got the garden watered and asked the neighbor to water while we were gone. bathed the kids and now its time for bed. My daughter asked for a lazy day and I do not see a time when we can make that happen. Well tomorrow we have to pack finish the carpets and and I still haven't cleaned our house. HELP!

Monday, August 2, 2010

I have XM! no longer stuck in the 90's!

Woke up this morning at moms and I didn't sleep at all. My uncles dog went around and woke up the kids a little after 2 this morning and I can not believe that this day has started so crappy! So woke up this morning and went to Walmart to get some things for mom and for our trip this week and I decided that I was going to finally buy myself XM. I have been waiting for the last year. The man was going to buy it for me last Christmas and then I was going to get it for my birthday and then I decided that I was not going to wait until this Christmas to be disappointed again. I am slowly getting out of the 90's. With my radio I mean! So thank you mom for my early Christmas present you rock! Now I need to call and set it up I will probably do that in the morning.

After going to Walmart and getting my Christmas present we went back to moms house and got the kids ready for the pool when the pool man let me know that no swimming for us he needed to put shocker in the pool. So the kids played and I decided to get the house ready for the man to sleep at moms tonight and then we got in the car to drive to the house its football time.

Got home and then the man took the kids to practice I decided that I needed to start getting the house ready. I started by throwing out all the crap in the fridge and I made frozen pizzas and I think that letting mo get some things at the store by his self was a good thing. I gave him the list and he got the groceries while I took mlmm to the restroom. He decided to get some frozen pizzas and it was a good thing for me so thank you mo!

So the man is staying at moms tonight and I am going to get the house done in the morning and try to pack the kids things in the morning and I hope to have all the bags ready tomorrow and then get to moms house. Yeah! once again I feel like I am spread really thin. My plate is so full and I feel stuffed with to much to do!

Sunday, August 1, 2010

The Big Big walk!

Woke up to mlmm doing what the man used to call it when he was young. The BIG BIG walk! Mlmm had woke up and was standing by my bed doing this kind of jig that I knew meant poop!!!! So up I jumped and put her on the toilet and then I remembered that mom had said she hadn't gone the whole time she was there. I forgot that she does this. So after a crying fit and her screaming for almost 20 minutes we had success and she is defiantly going to have to eat some greens this week! Maybe some apple juice. I mean ouch! I am going to have to remind people that she get constipated really easily.

So we didn't go to church this morning due to the lack of planning and the tired person that I am. I caved! The man totally side blinded me and asked the kids and mo and the man both agreed that movies seemed way better. I am sad but I will have to make everyone go to bed early next time. I will say that today was a nice day all and all.

I went to babysit my moms dogs this evening and I can not believe how tired I am. I can't even get the kids to bed so I can get this blog done and posted. Well I am going to quiet trying and get off the computer. So for the most part of the day it was wonderful lazy CAMPING! Yeah Go Week!